I was at my all time low around April 2015, we lost our second income, my health insurance, I was 7 months pregnant and I had to walk(while trying not to be seen) into our county office to apply for assistance. I felt dirty, gross, below my potential, like a free loader and yet, it was what needed to be done to take care of our family.
Because I am a stress eater, I was out of control!! My husband was having some health issues of his own and that just made things even crazier. I knew I had to do something, because I did NOT want to be that mom who couldn't keep up and I knew that was where I was headed. I had NO energy to keep up with my 3 year old, no desire to do anything other than sit and binge watch Grey's. I could feel that tiny bit of self esteem draining from me with every day that passed. I was losing myself and I was desperate to stop that cycle!
During a midnight breastfeeding session I was scrolling facebook and saw a crazy post about earning some money for working out, getting healthy and helping others do the same. I was intrigued...first, I knew this girl who posted REALLY well but hadn't spoken to her in years. I reached out to her and low and behold she was also up with her baby, and got back to me right away. I didn't know what to expect, I didn't know what I would be doing, I just had faith and hope that THIS "thing" would help me some how.
I didn't know how blessed I would be for following that little prompting to give it a try. That 2 week postpartum hormonal decision has changed my life in EVERY SINGLE WAY!!
I started out just focusing on all the physical problems I had, not really realizing the mental and emotional residue they had left on me. I was told I should drink this shake called Shakeology(which I totally thought was a protein shake at first), and I started working out slowly(still waiting for my dr approval ;)
Fast forward a little bit and I honestly can say that my physical(visual) transformation was EH! I lost a few pounds and a few inches, but whoa, the energy that I was feeling from actually getting nutrients into my body when I needed it most, THAT is where I saw the big difference! Just a few weeks post partum and I was feeling better than I had in years!
Fast forward a little more and I can now say that the physical transformation has nothing on my mental and emotional transformation. I have become more of who I feel like I am supposed to be. I still have my moments of feeling inadequate(I'm only human) but for the most part I am FREE from the pressures that were holding me down, not letting me do and be who I wanted to be, who I knew I was.
This transformation came as a result of helping others. Putting my heart and soul into helping people get healthier and happier was exhilarating and it brought me to this amazing place of fulfillment and joy. I cannot say enough how grateful I am that I took that leap of faith and signed up for something I knew nothing about. Sometimes God has to nudge you in a direction you can't see.
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