Self Sabotage

I struggle with self-sabotage.  Just saying that makes me cringe!

I wasn't aware that I was ever doing it until a few months ago. But the more I have become aware of it, the more I see it, most noticeably in my health & fitness.

I can make great strides, see progress and as soon as I realize that I am succeeding that I am getting closer to my goals something in me freaks out and for some reason, I self sabotage.

I will be doing really good with my health and fitness... working out, eating right, feeling REALLY good and then, as soon as I measure my progress (especially on the scale) something within me says "you're doing really good, you deserve to treat yourself."

That little sentence rolls over in my head and it's like a switch flips. I NEED to eat chocolate or chips, or ice cream, and it's not that I can't have those, but when I get into this mindset, I don't just eat a little...I BINGE!!!

This year I have been really trying to focus on finding out how to be BETTER, just being a better version of myself and putting that out there! As I was thinking about this and trying to figure out how to overcome this weakness, a couple months back a phrase came into my mind early in the morning as my meditation usually allows(because it's the only quiet part of my day, haha!).

The saying was "It's OK for me to SUCCEED!"

Every single time I speak those word out loud to myself, I can't help but tear up because I've never been proactive in taking a deeper look at my life, and in so doing I have found great strengths and struggles I never knew I had.

Looking back, I have been doing this my whole life! Thankfully I now have the support that I need to not only get through this, but to help others overcome their own struggles at the same time!
I am trying to live every day by that simple phrase "Its ok for me to succeed!"

I want you to know that no matter what you're going through in life, what you're trying to achieve...that if you take it deeper look and yourself sabotaging.

Comment below with "It's ok for me to succeed!" if you have seen this in your own life!! Let's kick self sabotage to the curb!!